the one thing I hate about this world is that it is so unfair. Why? You know what? I have been praying for somebody for the past four years. There is this guy that I really like and every single characteristic I prayed for was in him. Was it just a BIG, BIG coincidence? My goodness! And of course, I still continued to pray for him to get to know me better and love me much. It started with simple text messages, then you know how the story goes from then on.
but why is it, that these past few days he has not been talking to me. Whenever he sees me in the corridor, he never even bother to notice me. He saw me naman noh, like duh...well, anyway, he got really cold. Since then I started thinking about anything I have done that he did not like or turned him off. But not even a single reason for him to act that way. I totally am denying that fact of life that he might have changed his heart towards me. No, I don't want to think that way. I should always think positively...
"dothz, focus, focus...that is nothing. Dothz, I know that you know that you can smile every problem away..." whoe, but why is it that some of my friends still notice the bleakness depth in my eyes, even though I smile and laugh a lot? Is it too much for me to handle? I mean, at least, I didn't gave my heart away. I still have something to be happy about. But everybody knows that loosing someone you have been praying for years is really painful. Especially, when you don't know the real reason behind the coldness he shows you.
well, my bro nash and sis melissa told me that he might have reached the stage of witholding his feelings back. I mean, did I really pushed him too far that he has already fallen for me to? my goodness gracious.. that he is only testing himself if he can witstand not texting, seeing or talking to me. I hope and pray that he will not retreat from this intimate something that is going on. But as they always remind me, GUARD YOUR HEART... which I really never forget whenever I'm with him.
alam n'yo, sobrang sakit umasa...lalo na kung meron talaga siyang motibo. masakit pa lalo pag-iiwasan ka nalang niya bigla-bigla. He should have talked to me regarding that matter. He sounded so immature tuloy. whatever has happened between us, in the span of a month, is already a blessing to me. i really love him that is why i cannot hate him or anything... basta...un na un....
special thanks to teree gil guillermo's jokes and advices last night...teEgeE, thanks talaga utol...
about sa pic, that was taken a day before his b-day sa CCC tambayan...
