June 27, 2007

3:48 p.m

all I can do now is pray and hope for the best.

this has been one of the most terifying term in Mapua, and I believe that there is still more to come...But though this is a groggy term, it will not stop me from striving hard..

I did my part, though it might not be as what I have decided.

at guess what??

June 10, 2007

Well, I am sorry about this confession time.

For the first 16 years of my life, I had this conviction:

"My heart will only be for the man that will ask my hand in marriage"

I was really dedicated to do it the way as planned.

I had my very first suitor, when I was in grade 6.. he was really nice *shane, ei:)* but I am just too young and really am not INTO him. So, you probably knew all along what has happened--I turned him down. Honestly, it was hard coz he was really a nice guy. And even after the time that I said no, he still continued to be my friend.

Then, God has blessed me again with suitors. (no pun intended! ^o^)But to my surprise, I was really convinced not to have any of them as my boy. Oh c'mon, I still remember how sad I was! I can still remember the pain of turning down someone, whom (I thought at that time) I can be with until I die.

When I was in the graduating class of 2005, I met someone that I hoped and thought of more often than anybody else. To tell you, he was not my friend, not even my best friend! *josh, i mizz you, ahuhu* I met him only on the net thru friendster. (Nako naman dothz!) Sorry for comparing, but he was different from any of them. He was athletic, God-fearing and a people-person. We started to chat and see each other (which I know wasn't right). Then, I realized I wasn't anymore into the conviction of reserving my heart for the man that I will one day marry. Because I got into him, REALLY into him. And there, I broke my own vow. That was really awful.

After a year, I got out of it and started on with my new phase in life. Everything felt so important-so pivotal. Any second that passes by, I really wanted to make the most out of it. I wanted to make people smile and giggle. I wanted to serve God fully, and hopefully by His grace and mercy, He could give me another chance to love and not make the same mistake as before. And in His mighty hand, He guided me well. ^o^ Lord, thank you ^o^

and this is my task right now:

Also, stick with *bruno* with the right motives, in good ways and manners. Without compromising my own set standards just to please *bruno*.

He is really a Godly man, and I still need to wait and pray harder.

June 09, 2007

Well, here I am again,,pang-update lang ng blog…

Wala Lord, salamat sa’yo—kung wala ka, di ko mararanasan ang mga ito ^o^

Growing up and turning down suitors wasn’t a big deal, until I came across this special guy that made my world turn a hundred and eighty degrees. Well, what am I saying? You might think that napaka-confident ko naman sa mga pinagsasasabi ko dito. Okay, I will lay down my some of my cards (naks! English…*nose bleed*)

June 24, 2006---he was my seatmate sa opening ng NCAA 82nd season

June 29, 2006---naging ka-org ko siya sa CCC

July-September---coverage ng NC, pag wala daw ako hinahanap niya ako ke Ninong (**Ninong-taicho!! Elo**)

Sept. 23-26--- LTI ’07, kasama siya, sean, johper, at t.g sa Rizal Re-creation Center

Oct. 22---bday niya, debut-debut, Sunday, game versus JRU sa CCL---talo! ^o^

Oct. 23---nag-celebrate siya sa tambayan-hay nako, ako ang promoter-ginawan ko pa siya ng card na pormang jersey---pinasign sa mga kasama sa tambayan. Pati ang mga dunkers: macky, sean, t.g, jopher, and wency

Nov. 8---nag-patulong sa RESEARCH daw, pero later on, nalaman ko wla naman talagang research. Tsk, tsk

Last week ng December-January 1’07---simula sa Laoag hanggang makarating akong maynila----ka-text ko po siya.

January 17---naku, umiral ang pagkaselosa ko sa kanyang pinsan!!!! Wahahaha, kakahiya

Januay 18---tsk, tsk, tsk,,debut ko pa naman, pinaiyak niya ako—hindi niya alam na bday ko!!! Ang kapal talaga, nanghiram pa ng calcu nung umaga! Bitter mode lang

February 14---haha, basta un na un….

18---tagaytay blues…nako!!! Badtrip! Naiisip ko siya nung araw na to!!!!

22---IE plant visit, nag-text ng toooooootttooooooooottoooooo*some text missing*

March 13---nagpatulong sa written report---*eerrr, nagkainitan* pero naaus naman

19---aheeee, ang ganda ng dream ko

29---umagang-umaga nasa Mapua, pupunta kasing Balayan eh!! Nakita ko si Sean at tinawag ang bakulaw kong irog

April 4---nakita ko ATA siya sa resort kung san kami nag-camp…SIYA talaga ata un e,, yaw lang umamin nung tinanung ko—kasi nakita siya ng sis ko at tinitigan niya---syempre sabi ko napakalayong mangyari yon.

12-13---salamat kay P2! Tinawagan niya ako gamit ang suncell

May 17---nagpatulong magbenta nung pep tickets! Harhar! Tas may game sila versus CSB

28---si Dothz, tampururot

29---Kinuha ang ticket *refer to my blog regarding bruno*

30---papampam lang, kasama si utol…tsk naabangan nananaman ako sa labas (*phen, mando, beshan, salamat sa pagsabay pauwi*)

It took me almost a year before I realized that he was a gift freely given to me by God. Isn’t amazing? God is the scriptwriter/director of this wonderful fairy tale. But everybody knows that even a fairy tale has its own “anti-happily ever after” conflicts…and here are my own conflicts:

June 6---pinag-cover ako ni Ninong ng semis game versus Tangaraws (peace)…talo! Talo! Talo! Ggggrrr! Aba, inisnob na nga ako, sinabihan pa ako ng patalo! Ang kapal! Harharhar! Dahil ba kasama ang pinsan niyang mag-sexy sakin, itchapwera nalang ako? C’mon, wala na nga akong ginagawa eh..siyempre, bitter ang lola mo! Nagtext ng gabi,, humihingi ng pasensya sa ginawa niyang ka-karengkengan…sabi ko naman sa kanya ttttooooooooooooottttoooooooooooo*some text missing*

7---bday of mah sista! Sabi ni tessie nasa canteen, naka-shirt at shorts daw si papi. I was not even intending to see him, kaya lang ako ay nauhaw at nangaylangan dumaan ng canteen…haay! Ayan na ang mga higanteng anino! Mga mamaw! Eehhhhww!! (sabi ko sa sarili ko: Oh no Lord, please sana wala siya sa mga mamaw na ito!) Sobrang humorous ni Lord—aun andun siya…ako ay yumuko hangga’t wala ng maiyuyuko…ayun, halatang-halata ang pag-iwas ko..ako po ay hinarang ng mabangong mamaw—siya poi yon. I swerved left to right (ah nagpatintero!) sa pangatlo kong iwas, may nangyari (sa mga nakakaalam kung ano un., atin-atin nalang po!) eto po un: tooooootototototooooooooooooototott*system down* tapus umalis nako. Actually pinahalata ko talaga na inis ako sa ginawa niya kahapon---harhar! He texted me kung galit ba daw ako, sorry daw—hmmmm malamang.

Sana ung karugtong na script na ginawa ni Lord maganda na ang samahan nung dalawang bida!

Wala, un lang..pero nagtext padin ako,,un nga lang di masydo sweet..pero gang ngaun talagang siguro guilty padin siya sa ginawa niya…basta gagawa ako ng paraan para maging okay kami ulit.

I have learned that this is not a small matter anymore—halatang-halata na ung koneksyon…so I should learn to forgive and forget, and to give and take. I am determined to do something about this matter—coz I don’t want to lose him. He is such a darling. I have to eat my pride once and a while, just to come and meet his expectation.

Sabi nga ng friend ko, si ate Rose: Vera, even though you’re waiting on God upon this matter, realize also that you have to do your part. God made him find you na nga di ba? Do your part, kahit walang commitment, make him realize that you are worth waiting for….(ate Rose, salamat!)

Aww, and I will. Kahit magmukha akong tanga, gagawin ko..

June 7'07 (my sister's bday)

what a great question....tsk3

honestly, I am also asking the same question...

After year about pondering on this particular matter, I have landed into this conclusion:

"I am still single because, God has not yet allowed me to."

come on, how super spiritual, but that is how everything's goin'...

I am at His disposal..

Most of the times, just thinking about the thought of it makes me want to cry my eyeballs out. As in really cry it ALL out. If I could exaggerate for a moment---I want to cry blood! (waah, ang reckless ko nman!) It makes me most of the times, soooooo lonely, alone and very, very single. haay, buhay nga naman oh... tama na ang drama dothz, kagabi ka pa nagmumukmok! ^o^

but what makes me more fond of being single right now are the following things:

1. I can do things without being guarded by my boylet *wahehe*

2. I can spend more time with my family, which I cannot do anymore when I am in a relationship

3. I can still wear boyish outfits

4. I don't worry too much if I eat a lot!

5. less stress ^o^

another perspective of everything I said, singleness is still a gift that I can keep and develop for my future mate(wow sabaw,lalim!)

cguro ang dami kong di nagagawa pag-may bf...awawawawuuuu

wala lang

June 04, 2007

wahehe, ang galing ng cards versus letran!

astig talaga si jonathan banal, 23 pts., pa

tsk...7 pts, neil pascual,,fouled-out ^o^

nwei, tas namizz ko lang ang tatlong pugo, kaya ilalagay ko sila dito (papampam lang)

si t.g,neil,sean

ahehe, wala lang