December 29, 2006
For many months, I have been praying for this one special thing to occur into my life. And guess what? On this faithful day, my special prayer has been answered. He asked me if I can be courted. And oh my goodness, my heart pounded so fast that a split-second that it will stop, will kill me! (Only an exaggeration) But my joy was suddenly filled with sadness. A sadness that is too much to bear, too much for my slender mind can contain. Why with the sudden sadness? I remembered the vow I made to God and my parents. That is, not enter into a relationship not until I graduate. Whoe, I mean, I have been praying for this man for years. Then he came into my life, I think too early for me to handle. And oh, how I yearned to bring back the day I made that vow, so that I should have refrained from swearing. So what did I do at that moment? I stopped, remained silent and then took a deep breath. I rejected his heartfelt offer of happiness. Those words shattered my greatest hope to be with him. T_T I love him so much yet I need to follow my parents… And I know, in the long run---I did what is best for both of us..at least, it will also be a test, IF he will wait for two loooooong years just to be with me. Whatever it is that will happen years from now, I am praying hard, that if not in this lifetime of mine that he will be mine, there will always be a next life to be with him. I am HOPING, BELIEVING and PRAYING that my other lifetime will be two years from now. (Mushy huh..) ^o^So in this first blog for year 2007, I am missing that man. God might be dealing with him many things that I may not understand, but I will just trust God—because He knows what is best, whether or not it is good on my sight. Eto ang kanta ko para sa kanya.
The picture above is the portrait of my family at the Jumbo Floating Restuarant, wala lang.
I could hold on for a hundred years
When all else is goneI would still be here
In a memory of things yet unseen
I’d remember all that we’ve never been
And I cannot wait to see
What life has in store for me
Chorus:
In another lifetime It would be forever
In another world Where you and I Could be together
In another set of chances I’d take the one’s I’d missed
And make you mine
If only for a time
My life would matter
In another life
And I’d stay as strong and I’d stay as true
And you’d have forever now to think it through
Coz I believe what wasn’t meant to be
Wasn’t meant for now but
Someday you’ll see
In a place and time we never know
I’d be standing there waiting for you
Repeat Chorus
Bridge:
You would be mine
But until that time is now
I’d be holding on somehow
Repeat Chorus
CODA:
But until that timeI
’ll be holding onto forever
Until another life
For many months, I have been praying for this one special thing to occur into my life. And guess what? On this faithful day, my special prayer has been answered. He asked me if I can be courted. And oh my goodness, my heart pounded so fast that a split-second that it will stop, will kill me! (Only an exaggeration) But my joy was suddenly filled with sadness. A sadness that is too much to bear, too much for my slender mind can contain. Why with the sudden sadness? I remembered the vow I made to God and my parents. That is, not enter into a relationship not until I graduate. Whoe, I mean, I have been praying for this man for years. Then he came into my life, I think too early for me to handle. And oh, how I yearned to bring back the day I made that vow, so that I should have refrained from swearing. So what did I do at that moment? I stopped, remained silent and then took a deep breath. I rejected his heartfelt offer of happiness. Those words shattered my greatest hope to be with him. T_T I love him so much yet I need to follow my parents… And I know, in the long run---I did what is best for both of us..at least, it will also be a test, IF he will wait for two loooooong years just to be with me. Whatever it is that will happen years from now, I am praying hard, that if not in this lifetime of mine that he will be mine, there will always be a next life to be with him. I am HOPING, BELIEVING and PRAYING that my other lifetime will be two years from now. (Mushy huh..) ^o^So in this first blog for year 2007, I am missing that man. God might be dealing with him many things that I may not understand, but I will just trust God—because He knows what is best, whether or not it is good on my sight. Eto ang kanta ko para sa kanya.
The picture above is the portrait of my family at the Jumbo Floating Restuarant, wala lang.
I could hold on for a hundred years
When all else is goneI would still be here
In a memory of things yet unseen
I’d remember all that we’ve never been
And I cannot wait to see
What life has in store for me
Chorus:
In another lifetime It would be forever
In another world Where you and I Could be together
In another set of chances I’d take the one’s I’d missed
And make you mine
If only for a time
My life would matter
In another life
And I’d stay as strong and I’d stay as true
And you’d have forever now to think it through
Coz I believe what wasn’t meant to be
Wasn’t meant for now but
Someday you’ll see
In a place and time we never know
I’d be standing there waiting for you
Repeat Chorus
Bridge:
You would be mine
But until that time is now
I’d be holding on somehow
Repeat Chorus
CODA:
But until that timeI
’ll be holding onto forever
Until another life
